Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
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9:41 pm
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Monday, September 5th, 2005
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11:22 pm
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interests:
bike riding
ice cold water
kate wadkins on long island
me at purchase
good friends
good times
ryan woodhall in rockville centre
quitting my job someday
aw shit. life is good.
current mood:  awake
current music: do make say think
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Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
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7:53 am
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yo i wish i had a digi camera to
take pictures of myself to show everyone
take pictures of my body and post them
take pictures of me doing every drug imaginable because its the hip thing
take pictures of me making out with my boyfriend cause thats cool
PSYCH
current mood:  uhh.
current music: american steel
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Saturday, January 29th, 2005
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8:21 pm
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my sister is sitting on my lap typing this to you right now.
we are in my cousin's room looking at various posters on the wall:
- american flag with THESE COLORS DON'T RUN on it, with a portrait of jesus pinned to it
- mark messier of the new york rangers
- 4 MORE YEARS
- I am an American. NATIONAL RIGHT TO LIFE: Your Voice for Life in Washington and Across the Nation
- Miller Lite girl
- I WANT YOU FOR U.S. ARMY
- EWING (of the New York Knicks)
- KEEPERS OF THE SEA, navy battle ships and planes
- the statue of liberty giving the finger, caption reads: WE'RE COMING, MOTHERFUCKERS.
now for the bumper stickers on the door:
- AMERICANS kick ASS
- Don't F#@K WITH UNCLE SAM
- IRISH and Proud of it!
- LACROSSE UNLIMITED
- F@#K TERRORISM
- WWJD(WHAT WOULD JESUS DO)Hand painted and carved plaque.
why isn't this kid my best friend?
current mood: confused
current music: the clash?
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Sunday, November 28th, 2004
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6:01 pm
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i love these two people so much.
wednesday night i went to the city.
friday night i went to a potluck & show & a friends house.
saturday i saw old friends and it was darrens birthday
i also had an awesome sleep over with jackie & kathryn
today i did errands and got coffee with other friends.
this weekend made me miss hanging out with people because for
the most part i like to be by myself. but seriously.these past couple
of days have been awesome.
current mood:  uncomfortable
current music: the anniversary
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Thursday, November 25th, 2004
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2:39 am - "i watched you leave.you were smiling.i always want to remember you happy.i guess this is goodbye."
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city trip.
fancy dinner.
cheese cake & cappucino.
walking.
& loving the shit out
of eachother.
THATS what friends are
made of.
current mood:  i love everything right now.
current music: god speed you black emperor!
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Wednesday, November 17th, 2004
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10:15 pm - I DON'T REMEMBER WHEN THINGS STARTED TO FEEL SO BITTER!
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"phones work both ways
just like friendships do.
if i ever called you my
bestfriend i lied.
my beds got you beat."
a very close friend
of mine said this to
a friend she once had
who was lost in all the
commotion of life. he
forgot what slowing
down was. i feel like
that with a lot of my
friends. its just something
i'm afraid to come to terms
with.
current mood: uncomfortable
current music: sonic youth.
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Monday, November 15th, 2004
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11:51 pm - am i wicked.am i right.or am i just reactant all the time?
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Thursday, November 11th, 2004
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8:39 pm
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i kind of love everything
right now.its all just come
together and feels like it
fits just right. i don't want
things to get worse everything
is great right now. i've spent
a while getting you the fuck out
of my life and somehow you crawl
back in. why though?
<3 jess.
ps. sometimes i miss kate more than
i love her and sometimes i love her
more than i miss her. eitherway it
hurts real bad everyday.
current mood:  high above the clouds.
current music: twelve hour turn
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Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
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7:42 pm
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ATTENTION ! DANIEL VOTKE & KEIRAN MORRIS. ARE YOU READING WHAT I'M READING?
APPARENTLY I DREAM BIG.
current mood:  dirty
current music: moldy peaches
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Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
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9:52 pm - it hasn't been my day in years. what a couple more?
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deathcab this friday
next weekend purchase.
school is awesome.
new friends are really awesome.
serenading sweet ladiez is awesome.
and writing and feeling great is even better.
i like this.
lets keep this.
except today.
my mother is not so happy with me.
but thats always old news.
whatev.
not complaining.
love yrself.
jess!<3
current mood: uncomfortable
current music: rainer maria.
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Thursday, October 7th, 2004
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5:48 pm
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five thrty is the most beautiful time in the fall. everything is at peace. the earth isn't quite asleep yet, itd in this dreamy state. you know the half awake state. where everything is of a different perception. life is timeless. so i sit down on my back deck and watch the suns rays fly across the sky. at that very moment i thought of all the things that make up the earth. and how beautiful they are. its six o clock. the sun is a child struggling for ten more minutes to stay up to watch late night telelvision. maybe everyone needs to do this. during the fall we should all go out on our decks at five thirty and watch the earth live. watch the sky fall asleep. i feel like friends or people for this matter, don't see things this beautiful. you have to have time or make time. i want to make time for mother nature. you know. tell her i care and apriciate not having to spend a dime or a phone call to enjoy something. nature is a phenomenon. the sun finally set. the sky was black. i walked upstairs and suddenly felt defeated. the world isn't such disaster sometimes. you just really have to look.
current mood:  perfect.
current music: latterman
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Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
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5:49 pm - confused with a capital K.
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i hate the internet.
even though i communicate on it
most of the time. i feel like i
sould like a really upity,annoying,
stupid person but in real like i'm
this ridiculous,sarcastic,dry,person
who is an asshole as a joke and loves
to have long conversations and is hyper
on occasion.its frustrating cause i hate
what my internet personality is like.
gossssh.
ps. where i describe what i'm really like
it sounds like i'm on a dating service online.
one of those. "if you like me press 9." type
deals. ohhh fuck it.
current mood:  dorky
current music: wilco
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Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
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1:58 am
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my planned night crashed and burned
but suprisingly walking into town
was the greatest idea i had.
hungout with astounding people.
saw shaun of the dead which
was very very humorous.
missing katherine e. wadkins.
diner date with ms. susan belle
tomorrow night. i'm going to dress
up and wear perfume and everthing.
haha.
xoxoxoxox <3!
jessica c. wadkins
current mood:  crazy
current music: pg.99 - yr face is a rape scene
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Thursday, September 16th, 2004
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11:17 am
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i'm at purchase.
i'm waiting for kate to come and wake me
up and bring me to her class.
i love it here and never want to leave.
seriously.
<3 jess
current mood: excited
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Sunday, September 5th, 2004
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7:34 pm
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saw susan belle at one am.
met ben furgal. her boy. AWESOME.
had donut fights and played handball
and had crazy hangout till five am with
jackie darren & ryan. it was really good.
this summer was great but it needs to end.
the joy luck club is a great book.
i love working at creative child.
and i love colleen hinton. and i'm so glad
me and her got really close this summer.
and i cant wait to stay at purchase.
<3
jess
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Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
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12:44 am
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fifty things i bet you don't know about me. [unless yr kate wadkins]
1 i am obsessed with sweet patterns
2 i admit to being an asshole but never take it seriously
3 i cut people off when i don't want to hear what they have to say
4 half of my "best friends" barely even see me let alone speak to me
5 i had a really ridiculous relationship with a boy and i regret it a lot
6 i'll tell everyone my life is awesome to the point i convince myself it is
but its really in shambles
7 i love making things for people i love dearly
8 i cleaned up my act and now i'm obsessed with keeping a neat room
9 i get really upset with my sister sometimes because she knows me better than
i know myself
10 up until a couple of months ago i didn't know if i was seriously sexually assualted or not
11 i hate going to shows for the most part but go anyway
12 i cant take anyones bullshit anymore
13 i used to be a door mat for anything that had legs. i let everyone walk all over me
14 i am the most stubborn person in the world and don't mind it that much
15 i hate holding hands i think its awkward
16 i hate most of my writing i think its cliche and corny
17 i cant cry infront of anyone
18 i love my sister more than anything breathing on this earth
19 i want to make a mix tape of really ridiculous songs on it. like stop right now by the spice girls and kissed by a rose who ever sang that.
20 i am on the internet way too often
21 i use the word love too lightly
22 i dont ever want to touch a boy "that way" ever again.
23 i never want to be in a relationship again. i think i ruin it. and its my fault. when it isnt
24 when someone fucks me over i just talk a lot of shit on them and never actually talk to them about it cause i am scared and awkward but usually i do when i amcomfortable with the person
25 i wish i could fly and think about buying some fairy dust and jumping out my window all the time
26 to this day the most moving book i have ever read is perks of being a wall flower
27 i love sandlot and can recite it word for word for you.
28 i have this ridiculous obsession with napoleon dynamite and long to be him.
29 i do wish me and my exboyfriend still talked. i havent figured out why
30 i love oreos and milk. and i love sweet potatoes. and i love eggs.
31 my mothers iced tea makes me feel better when i feel crazy talking to someone. it reminds me of home
32 my family is very amazing and i never say it enough.
33 i should go to therapy but i'm afraid to find out what is wrong with me.
34 i really fucked up in school and want to change that
35 i wish i was straight edge and vegetarian
36 if i see people moshing violently at a show i wont talk to them if they approach me because i hate moshing so much
37 my grandpa woggle is my hero and i desperately wish he was still alive
38. i am neighborhood oriented i still talk to my neighbors and/or am close with them
39. i have one kidney
40. i got pin worm this one time and it was the grosest thing ever and made me feel violated
41. i think scars are cool
42. womyns collective is the most positive thing that has happened to me this year
43. i procrastinate a lot
44. i wish my dog was an actual person. i would still cuddle and kiss him all the time and end up living with him because he is a total gay dog. he only humps men.
45. i often think about my friend leanna that moved to south carolina in first grade. i wonder where she is and what she is doing.
46. my moms side of the family are all irish,catholic,constervative,cop loving republicans with the exception of two people maybe three.
47. i hate most boys.
48. i hate highschool
49. i want to live in so many places just to experience it
50. i really dont like the way i act or speak or see myself. i think it has a lot to do with what my mother has taught me and my ridiculous insecurites.
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Sunday, August 29th, 2004
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11:50 am
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kate is gone.
i miss her so much.
blegh.i;m going to visit her
so much this year. i finished
cleaning my room last night. and
recovered this table to look nicer.
it has lime green flowers on it.
my first break from school is
september 16 - 19. purhcase here i come!
ha.
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Saturday, August 21st, 2004
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6:16 pm - la la love you.
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i went to pennsylvania with my best friends for a while. it was wonderful.
i came home to my sister among many other people i love having a parttty.
a lot of people slept over and got realllly wasted. christine and i went
for a bike ride for two hours and talked about a lot of stuff. it was really
nice to have some one to talk about a lot of stuff with. summer came and went
and i think this was my favorite summer by far. kate leaves for purchase in a
little over a week i think.i don't want her to leave. but i'm going to visit
her all the time. i want to visit aidan all the time too. hes right in the city.
i'm going to miss so many people. its kind of upsetting how much my stomach
has been hurting thinking about it. ugh. life goes on right? no matter what
the earth never spins backwards. just gotta keep moving.
current mood:  gloomy
current music: pixies - debaser
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Sunday, August 15th, 2004
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11:15 pm - whatsssssuuuup
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the she bang was wonderful. bought beautiful things from beautiful ladies. the womyn who played were great.the speakers were wonderful.i read with kate and lenny and it was awesome. i sold my braceletes. if any of you went helped or did anything thankyou so much it was probably one of the most wonderful expericences ever. <3
current mood: chipper
current music: rachel jacobs.
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